PAIN (feat. R.A.H & Chim Beatz)

Memories liquefy and move through veins fast Thoughts kaleidoscope and they move through stained glass Days pass like sand grains, weeks turn to hours I know that good times can't last I'm 20 something Sooner or later, I gotta face facts Music might not work, it's third and goal And I caught a face mask It seemed like yesterday, Paul and I walked the train tracks He been gone since 04, it's hard to get my brain wrapped I had to bury my best friend, so let me change tracks Wha gwan, hip-hop, the name's Jaxx My angle came out the rugged terrain Where the push man slang crack A street cat so far from the same batch Prison bars heard the clang latch Chain snatched, stack change had to change that Niggas claimed that I got soft when I changed my name Call it what you will, I played it safe, black Yeah, change come, change goes So I gotta wake up and let the pain go Winter, spring, summer, fall I gotta wake up and let the pain go Change comes, change goes So I gotta wake up and let the pain go I gotta wake up and let the pain go I gotta wake up and let the pain go I say that I'm religious But I'm scared to be a martyr Writing for my therapy, sharing all these problems If I die, would you use my soul as mortar Stick together today, forget about the war tomorrow Living off the sorrow that my eyes done seen I came a long way from that violent scene Never found suicide appealing But murder was alluring The truth and lies revealing With the verdict came a warning I was a protege to few, successor to many Militant force in my fist when I was testing the semi Beat a couple dudes up like Reginald Denny And though I feel remorse, I can't muster it in me To apologize, because I still feel justified Coming up, letting knuckles fly Cause a couple guys wanna take my pride But I pray for forgiveness Down on my knees, the faithful submittant Yeah, change come, change goes So I gotta wake up and let the pain go Winter, spring, summer, fall I gotta wake up and let the pain go Change comes, change goes So I gotta wake up and let the pain go I gotta wake up and let the pain go I gotta wake up and let the pain go What's recorded you see is all according to me Whether you believe or not, it ain't important to me I only have one regret, that I aborted the seed And then the pain I released got absorbed in the street My heart I wore on my sleeve, I walked around with a warrior's steez Whatever happens, girl you still gorgeous to me I still cry at the thought of ruined lives Who was I at 19, at the time, raising a seed Yo, I couldn't fly, retrospect, yeah we should've tried But we mutually agreed, the two of us would grieve And do an evil deed, in the future re conceive But cupid didn't need to get involved, but he did I fell for another woman, then I rigged you and slid Joy and pain are bittersweet, that's how we connect Up and down, round and round, till it finally end Yeah, change come, change goes So I gotta wake up and let the pain go Winter, spring, summer, fall I gotta wake up and let the pain go Change comes, change goes So I gotta wake up and let the pain go I gotta wake up and let the pain go I gotta wake up and let the pain go