Blake's Bible

Lord forgive me, young, wild and active Skinny, white face, socially attractive Every statement I stated was accurate Daily living, Gaelic, boxing, drug deals Dramatic flings, I sold jewellery, living sarcastic dreams Selling was a big part of my life, I sold narcotics Even as a child, nobody wanted me Be part of a group, bullied all my life Even in my teens, got disrespected while being respected Doubt me, mock me, mouth me, beat me up while they knocked me Never got involved in the killing scenes Watch who you step with, I'm a human Grew up without a dad, angry and mad, guilty and sad I'm strict, life ain't what it seems When you're living dead, rest in peace, those with wings As a child, I was lucky to get toast without beans Fed, chicken supreme, grew up with wolves and sharks Whole family of different breeds, never tried Helping, crack fiends, lord forgive me Sitting silently, on silent nights, reminisce, why, I used to get chased by knives Wonder why, I played Gaelic, grew up on violent fights No wonder why, I suffer, with depression Never dealt with, my emotion, always suppressed it Never addressed it, music is my expression Every beat I made, every rap I wrote, I delivered Never meant it, when I was young, writing poems and stories Abused and molested, why, I was so confused Explain my upbringing, always ran with runts Started with my cousin, we went on for a few years Then it was jaw, we went on for a few months On Blake's Bible, this might be new For me, it's old news, who's infused Daily basis, me and jaw, would engage Watch nudity, I started, deformed Introduce me, we started, re-informed In between, me and my cousin, going back and forth Only this year, I told my mother, no emotional support I wish, I was never born, some may not believe me Some may not understand me, growing up in a toxic family Lord, forgive me