Servant

God bless my curse. why heal? this gift hurts. Thefire has died? still i'mtortured by the burn inside. but you didn't havefucking thing to do withit, you never played a goddamn part in it, i've givenso much i'll die init, you still feel its your right to fuck with it....iwas never pushed, ifucking let go, you never pushed me you fuck, youthink i'd give you thepleasure? Fail. I hope you fail in your life, i knowyou've failed in yourmind...i've learnt what faliure is about, you fuckingdead sure i won't try?if i cry then i can't see, these blood soaked tearsset me free, i drownedthese tears so i can see reality inside of me....i wasnever pushed, ifucking let go, you never pushed me you fuck, youthink i'd give you thepleasure? is that what you believe, is that what youfucking wanna hear? youfucking know i'm real, you fucking know i'm here...iknow you inside out, iknow you better than i know myself......i serve youbetter than i servemyself...why? why, why is this in me. i'm breathing,i'm praying to thatselfish god within me, to that hollow god that stalksyou. praise yourgoddamn life, fulfill your goddamn life...praise yourgoddamned life,fulfill your goddamned life. stillborn liar, wartornliar, forlorn liar. imay fail but you have to pick me up to see, i may failbut you have to testme out to see. i may fail but you have to pick me upto see, i may fail butyou have to test me out to see. you scatter, but ihave to gather, fallenall over and i will gather. you scatter, but i have togather, fallen allover and i will gather. why?