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I can't believe it's been a yearsince I kissed my fearson their salty lips and said to themI love you allI carried the weight of the world on my shouldersfor 20 years and look at me nowI've got something to sayabout the last 12 months I've livedI'm not the same kid I was when I was youngerI just thought you should knowI take a pill every day to help me deal with lifeand oh my god, I've lost controlI stare at accidents in a sick attemptto feel at allI carried the weight of the world on my shouldersfor 20 years and look at me nowI've got something to sayabout the family that I've lostI hope my mother and my father thinkthat they raised a healthy boywho needs the help of a shrinkto even leave the house?and oh my god, I've lost controlI stare at accidents in a sick attemptto feel at allI'm not the same kid I was when I was youngerI just thought youI just thought you should knowI'm not the same kid I was when I was youngerI just thought youI just thought you should knowI carried the weight of the world on my shouldersfor 20 years, look at me nowand nowand nowI'm finding a way to forget everyone that I knowI can't believe it's been a yearsince I kissed my fearson their salty lipsand said to them I love you alldon't ask just followrepeat and swallowdon't ask just swallow them down your throatdon't ask just swallowrepeat and followdon't ask just swallow them down your throatmy best friend is a man with a lab coat and a grinI hold my shaking hand and he gives me medicineit almost makes me feel at homebut they slowly steal my soulI tell him I still feel alone"Don't worry someday I promise you will feel whole."[x3]oh my godI've lost controlof the only thing in lifeI had a hold of