Drinking Joy, Bitter Loss

When the ending comes for meCan I welcome oblivion's kissWill I embrace my own deathCan it bring me the peace that I craveSweet salvation I beg of youDisconnect my eyesTo drift away from my mindSoulless, empty and dissoluteAware of the end that kisses my faceAnd takes away my painTouch me, oblivionAs the memories fadeAs I change from life to deathAnd I pass away from the painWill I know your faceOr remember your nameWhat will the memories bring- Peace and harmony?Will I forget the sorrowAnd the bitter regret?Do not weep for meAs I transcend the fleshTo move beyond the hellThat I left for youNothing but pain is paid forBy blood and tears and sacrificeThe dark closes inAnd my destiny descendsVelvet enfoldsTo smother my soulPushing my mortality awayHow will I dieWhat will the meanings be to my lifeWith the future untoldI may drink from tears of joyBut will I only taste the bitter loss