Letters To April

If I start writing you a letter tonightI'll be writing for hoursIt doesn't seem like I can say anythingUnless it's everything.If it could ever find its way to an envelopeIt won't find its way to youYou're a million miles away.It always seemed that way whenYou weren't at arms lengthThere were some things that I wanted to tell youAnd wanted to sayBut I couldn't find youAnd I couldn't find a waySo how in the world did everything go wrong?I won't fall asleep tonightAs hard as I lookI won't find you in my armsI was almost sure you were supposed to be thereI locked you inside of my chestTwo years agoAnd I'm not letting you out.I just thought that you should know.All the things I thought were everythingI'm scared weren't anything.Separation is such a relentless acheThe thoughts of you streamingEach one more beautiful than the one beforeAnd I'm asking myselfHow could I've been better for you?Listening for your voiceTo break the silence that goes on foreverI'm not sure I told you enoughYou're the most beautiful thing I've ever seenI'm sure if I look hard enoughI'll find you pressed against me in my arms,Lips on your neck, You're voicePromising me that you'll always love mePS I'll always love you and I'm scared of hurting you.