Pretend

There are times when I find myself lying awakeWith no reason except to miss youI want to hold you in my arms now just like a childBut it hurts too much to careAll that I want is for you to kiss me and sayEverything is fineBut now I hang my head cuz you're not mineWhy do I pretend that I'm over you?Why do I pretend we're just friends?Why do I pretend that I don't care no more?Cuz deep inside these feelings for you will never endThere are times when you find yourself lying awakeWith no reason except to hate meLooking back now it seems like it wasToo good to be trueHow could it be such a good thing has passed?Well, the only one I blame is meBut back then I was much too dumb to seeI was young an foolish, an insecure wreckDidn't know what I wanted, I was incorrectConcealing my feelings and I don't know whyBut I don't want to let you goI never want to hear you say goodbyeYou don't know how I feelAnd I can't pretend it's not real