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I'm cold, I'm uglyI'm always confused by everythingI can stare into a thousand eyesBut every smile hides a bold-faced lieIt itches, it seethes, it festers and breathesMy hero's are dead, they died in my headThin out the herd, squeeze out the painSomething inside me has opened up againThoughts of me exemplifiedAll the little flaws I have deniedForget today, forget whatever happenedEveryday I see a little more of overall deficienciesI'm nothing short of being one complete catastropheWhat the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?I save all the bullets from ignorant mindsYour insults get stuck in my teeth as they grindWay past good taste, on our way to bad omensI decrease, while my symptoms increaseGod what the fuck is wrongYou act like you knew it all alongYour timing sucks, your silence is a blessingAll I ever wanted out of you wassomething you could never beNow take a real good look atWhat you've fucking done to meGimme any reason why I'd need you, boyGimme any reason not to fuck you upGimme any reason why I'd need you, bitchGimme any reason not to fuck you upI see you in meI keep my scars from prying eyesIncapable of ever knowing whySomebody breathe, I've got to have an answerWhy am I so fascinated bybigger pictures, better thingsBut I don't care what you thinkYou'll never understand me