rain in the night

I stand out in the rain at night Try not to plan my suicide Admit that I'm terrified At what's in store for me in my life Where do I turn I don't know where to go When will I learn to not always put on a show I try But I'm scared I'll die I say that I'm fine But every time I lie I can't accept help because of my pride I got my angels arguing on both sides I just told em all to wait a minute In my head the demons visit Something weighing down my Spirit I think that I reached my limit Reaching my tipping point Pushing me to the edge I'm sorry to disappoint I dive off of the ledge I can't hide I stand out in the rain at night I can't hide I need you by my side Standing in the shadows Thinking nothing really matters My heart is feeling shattered But it's time I close that chapter On the other side I hear laughter I want to go and join them But I'm afraid my darkness will scare them all away My sins on my brain I hope that the rain Washes them all away I'm done saving face I'm trying to find my place In this world but I'm lost in space Why do I chase the things that always weigh me down I can't hide I stand out in the rain at night I can't hide I need you by my side