New Year

Sitting here stressing at 2:30amAbout how fast the year can goI wonder where it wentIf we start all over again, would it really workI know that you could be, could be, coming back to meMesmorised, but of thoughts of fearTraumatised, I'm so scared to feelWanna stop thinking gotta get to sleepGotta wake up fresh, get on my feetPush the thought of you awayDo it todayI'm older than my yearsDrowing in my tearsSurrounded by the fearSince you went away, a year agoAt ChristmasYou locked away your secretsKept them away from meI only came to say goodbye, now you finally seeYou wanna start all over again, make it work this timeBut I don't wanna end up feeling far away from fineI memorised, what you said to meSo surprised, it was hell to beSo frustrated with the way we wereNot a single word could make it workNow look at us todayWe blew it awayI'm older than my yearsDrowing in my tearsSurrounded by the fearSince you went away, a year agoAt Christmas