Moron

Started out trying to fake a smileDisillusioned, I'm in denialThere's something missing cuz I don't feel a thingI'm desensitizedYou can't fake this andI can't take anymoreI'm not so dumb I can ignoreAnymoreAll this confusion is running deep inside my headHow much longer can I keep this up before I end up dead?I can't believe that it could come to thisIt's only feelings so I can't resistI'm falling deeper to denialStill I'm trying to believe in something