How It Was Always Meant To Be

Looking for a place where I can calm my mind Lately these days that's a tall mountain to climb Trying to get peace from wherever I can find Is it all worth it? Please just show me a sign I've been feeling stuck and I'm lost send help Everything's been fucked and I just want to melt Into oblivion maybe I won't feel anything Cause I'm tired of dealing with everything I need some motivation or relaxation But how can I relax when I always feel so bad? Just trying to remember that childhood I had Man its a process making me a mess and now I can't fucking process I just feel so alone When will I find my home I don't know No I don't Someone once asked me how I was doing today Who am I kidding man they ask me every day And I'm say I'm doing fine except we all know it's a lie I can't sell my happiness that's something they won't buy Everybody turns around and I'm alone again I know I wrote a message but I'm too scared to hit send Maybe shit'd be easier if I was a better friend But I'm stuck here by myself with all my wounds to mend Dreaming bout the day when I see you all again I can't wait much longer I might break when I start to bend They say this will pass by but motherfuckers tell me when Tired of picking up the pieces I just wanna be whole again Lately feeling shitty is a daily fucking trend I'm looking off the edge thinking about the descent If you have a helping hand it won't work if you try to lend I'm made to be alone - it's how it was always meant to be