Fighting These Feelings

Now I ain't the jealous type, I know my worth I'm the sin you crave, not the saint at your church Let them bless your name in the vows they recite But I'd f*ck you harder, raw and unholy, every night It's a balancing act—grind, play, and rest Legs open like my tarot, let the stars confess Call me the devil, but I'm no cheap thrill I don't wreck homes, baby, I just bend your will Temptation's a beast I've learned to ride But the chaos inside never fully subsides They say at the protests their voices break through Fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity—it's true Fighting these feelings is like drowning to learn how to swim Fighting these feelings is like trying to put out a fire with gasoline—keep fueling the flames Don't we know, feelings ain't foes, they're the truths that we find But the blaze in my chest keeps burning my mind Gotta flip the script, let the hurt become real Turn the pain into purpose so it becomes a done deal So I'm done throwin' hands with the ghosts in my head Let 'em talk, let 'em scream, let's go crazy instead 'Cause peace ain't a fight, it's a truce I declare I'm the champ of my mind, so pull up a chair What if we surrendered and let it all go Let temptation take the reins, let the wildness show Rebel with a purpose, leave a mark that scars Set the night on fire like defiant stars Holy enough to pray for them, fierce enough to swing Fucking for purity and the chaos it brings I'm holy enough to kneel, pray for your grace But hood enough to love you in a reckless embrace I'll rewrite those vows, twist the sacred line Turn devotion to desire, blur the divine What if I gave in, unleashed the storm Let the revolution take its most human form Would you stand beside me or turn away As I turn this chaos into power and pray away Those who pray away the gay What's a revolution if it doesn't bare the soul What's redemption if it leaves you cold Spread the cards wide, let fate deal the hand In your arms I finally understand Temptation's a beast I've learned to ride But the chaos inside never fully subsides Fighting these feelings is like fleeing your heart No matter the distance, it tears you apart The faster you run, the stronger it stays A pulse in your chest that won't fade away It follows you close like a drum in your ear Reminding you always there's nowhere but here To quiet the beat, you can't turn and hide You've got to face it and let it reside Fighting these feelings is like caging the tide The harder you push, the more they collide What's a revolution if it doesn't bare the soul What's redemption if it leaves you cold Spread the cards wide, let fate deal the hand In your arms I finally understand