Out of Love

You brought color to my life The day you came into this world Fade to black now It's all over Mother wakes me up Five years old at six o'clock I'm too young and it's too dark Hands me your bottle Seated next to your crib Feeding you milk Off she goes When will we see her again? Who knows Put you in my lap when you cry Singing you Twinkle Twinkle Because you were my little star Only one coming to my rescue Every time my days got dark Changing your clothes Walking talking toilet-training Bringing you to school then bringing you back Teaching you English science and math Of all the people who hurt me bad You're the last I ever thought was capable of that First time You found out I sent your father to jail You were eight Took off your belt and smacked me fast Wonder where you learned that You see the apple didn't fall far from the tree And to this day I hate Adam and Eve Because knowledge has left me with far less good than evil And if I created a monster then that must make me the devil Now You are so much taller and bigger than me Getting mad at everything Screaming in my face With your hands around my throat Calling me every bad word in the book You're suffocating me and I can't take it anymore I'm grabbing the knife Wait—I've seen this before She used to walk around the house With a knife in each hand He'd brainwash us into believing She's the crazy kind of mad But now I see she was just trying to protect herself You weren't even born You saw the least yet you've become the worst Sucking the life out of everyone Literally All you really did see Was me being thrown around for nothing And now you do the same to me I did not get this far to go through it again This time I'm a grown woman And you are not the man I raised It breaks my heart That the one person who brought me so much joy Now brings me so much pain No more fake apologies or excuses I'm done with second million chances You are weak And raising your hand on a woman Is not gonna make you strong You need help and you need it now Consider this a boundary An unbreakable wall Because sometimes bridges are meant to be burned May this one light the way To a life that takes my breath away Out of love