Darkness

I went from raindrops to waterfalls to drowning in the sea Hard to keep my head above it all, now I can't even breathe Slowly sinking, all this drinking really got me in too deep Demons whisper in my ear, they try to get me in my sleep But I'm wide awake, devils must still be inside of me No, I won't die today, zannies come and take my mind away And I can't hide away, the guilt don't bother me It always finds its way back So I try to get some rest and go to bed Then I wake up feeling suicidal Hand on the bible and I pray But I'm losing vitals To false idols and they claim Holding on to my soul Another bottle down the drain But I'm feeling hollow I can't seem to numb the pain Can't see a thing in this darkness Don't leave me here with these problems I roll up the weed 'cuz that solves 'em No easy living, it gets harder, won't You call me up 'cuz I hope you might I say I don't love you but I always lie You say that I shouldn't, that it don't feel right I don't feel right, it don't feel right Girl, especially when I'm alone at night All I wanna do is to hold you tight You say that I shouldn't and I know you're right I know I'm high, I know you're right You care about me but I cannot be saved And tonight I stay up late like I'm stuck in my ways Got the feeling something's wrong and I'm taking up space See a lot of people smiling but I cannot relate And if I keep this up there's a price to be paid I can't lie, I'm broken by my own mistakes As I cry and I'm hoping to see better days I try to survive, death is not far away When I feel emotion I just bottle it away I can't see the motions I am caught up in the waves As I keep avoiding All the thoughts up in my brain I can't sleep alone when I am hiding from the pain