Allegations

I feel the stressed the f*ck out man! You know... Dealin' with the non-stop allegations and my minds like... When the f*ck is this going to stop?! Come on! I always feel like, I'm always to blame Because it's easier than dealing with shame It's been causing me, a whole lot of pain... And all they really care about is winning the game It's about control, and they willing to exploit I tried to back out, but that wasn't a choice Especially when they provoke me like crazy mad If that's what they do for fun then I'm sad I just can't believe that I'm a part of the gang And all of a sudden, you think I'm causing all the pain What the f*ck, why didn't you call me upfront? You act like I knew, you think I would bluff? So now my entire life is fucked thanks to allegations I'm not a fucked up person, I don't want to be them If you think I'm like the others who show disrespect... Better get yourself a reality check because I'm... Tired of the allegations... Tried of the bullshit claims... Tried of the allegations... It hurts my brain... Tired of the allegations... Tried of the bullshit claims... Tried of the allegations... I'm put in this situation, guess I better fix it But when I open my mouth, it gets twisted They didn't teach me the right words to say I can't socialize, I'm fucked up every which way I always imagine what it feels like to be normal... All I've experienced in life was torment so eternal But then I realize, all these people blindly follow shit Say it's all bad then they slap around and f*ck a chick All born with silver spoons, they never even struggled They were rich kids, of course they were smothered You think that you all that, just because you got a dick? You think you powerful? you just a hyprocrite! I'm a victim because of my disability A scapegoat who let the villains go free They're living well, me? I'm not I walk on the streets just hoping I get shot I try to avoid the reality... But the whole world is like this... How foolish of me to think otherwise... Now I get the jist I'm like Michael with the tabloids; that shit never ends You eventually escape... And then the cycle begins all over again It's like... How dare you abuse me like a fool How dare you tell me what I'm supposed to do I have autism. I'm not 100% crazy... But I'm 100% to you because you are lazy Unable to open up, unable to understand It's easy for you but it ain't easy for me man I spit everyday just to learn those bars I don't really mind the challenge; I like things hard But I hate the accusations, it's constant negativity Unlike you robots, I feel things emotionally And you're saying I should take a gun and commit suicide? I mean everything's my fault and I should die? Deep down you know that shit ain't right... And yet you have the nerve to destroy someone's life I'll still fight, because I know we can do better You know what my favorite word is... Never!