Human Inside

I'm human inside I ain't no robot I'm human inside I ain't no robot I'm human inside, I ain't no robot I got feelings inside, I cry them tear drops I don't hide who I am cause that's just fake I'm aware of my reality, I'm aware of my fate If I told you I was human, would you believe I ain't perfect, I make mistakes consistently I let delusions in my mind take control of my life My brain ain't right cause I'm addicted to the vice Like the rush and feelings that I use to escape My own self-doubt and insecurity, I'm filled with hate For myself. I don't know how it would turn out If I didn't have problems always weighing me down You might hate me for the way I cope and react Sayin' slurs, bein' offensive, I know I'm better than that I educate myself daily to escape the trap But I can't escape autism and that's a fact So I guess I'm always doomed to be self-destructive It's like I'm playin' a game with no simple instructions Hopin' for the day I can find forgiveness for myself And escape this pain that has me trapped livin' in hell I'm human inside, I ain't no robot I got feelings inside, I cry them tear drops I don't hide who I am cause that's just fake I'm aware of my reality, I'm aware of my fate If you got to know me, would you understand Or would you think that I do not give a damn I speak honesty and truth with every word that I say And no I ain't playin' games, that's just plain cray I give respect regardless of who they might be I don't care about gender or identity And if you think I care about sex and all that You gotta realize that I'm better than that You might think that I'm addicted to the conflict I don't like to beef, that drama always persists Trynna be though can straight up destroy your life I don't need to try, I'm already good on the mic I can't read people, I couldn't if I tried I don't know what is goin' on inside your mind I'm livin' just like you, my only focus is me Screw the tomfoolery, everybody should be happy And that the truth I'm preachin' here Screw living in conflict, screw livin' in fear The only thing we have to fear is fear ourselves And that's the only way we'll get ourselves out of this hell Those are the raw scriptures right there