Lots of Losses

Everybody has their wins Me I have my losses And I'm known as a loser Because that's what I am I’ve lost so many times, I don’t know a win I’ve had a lot of my work thrown in the trash bin I pretend like I know how to play the game But I’m the worst player around and it’s a real shame I keep on going, even though my efforts are for naught I think I’m doing good and what do you know? I get shot Then I exit from the hospital, still alive Why in the f*ck do I even try? I’m just hoping that things will get better one day So I can finally mean something, have something to say My everlasting dream is to influence the world… With the sounds and the beats like prophecy foretold But I don’t know yet how the f*ck I’m going to win I don’t even know when the story begins… So I’m forced to walk the earth as the role of a dumb fool I wish I were smart, I wish I had gone to school I'm just a guy with a lot of losses And I don't know how I'm going to stop it I'm just a guy with a lot of losses And I don't know how I'm going to stop it I’m an embarrassment to my family It’s gotten so bad, that they no longer believe That I can be anything except a class clown I’m just a rappin’ guy who wants to be underground I made mixtape after mixtape just trying to blow up And I filled myself with hate, let myself become corrupt Deluded myself into thinking I was one of the best But then I took a step back, realized I was being racist I brought myself to new lows, I didn’t even think I insulted some rapper, didn’t know I was at the brink… Of destruction… I couldn’t even resist Now I got myself a cease and desist And then I opened my eyes and what do I see? This very big thing called reality And it’s harsh as shit, couldn’t comprehend I couldn’t go back, so this is where my story began I'm just a guy with a lot of losses And I don't know how I'm going to stop it I'm just a guy with a lot of losses And I don't know how I'm going to stop it I have to keep trying because that’s what I know Even though it’s impossible I’m going to blow It’s like Lopez and his comedy dream I can’t give up on it, you know what I mean? Feels like I was born to do this Even though people call me foolish I’ve already learned so much rap So much so, that it’s impossible for me to go back… To the life I’ve lived, all the torment and pain All the people hating me, such an emotional drain I’ve tried so hard just to appeal to people I’ve only now realized that it’s deadly lethal I’m doomed to get losses forever But as they always say, never say never Even though I know how this will go I’m going to make a win out of this scenario And that's all I know