Stranger

I’m a stranger in a strange land Trying to understand how to adapt Whether people will like me and all that crap Why do I worry? Cause I’m strange, it’s not an act I could let my white privilege dominate what I say But I did that shit in Compton and they threw me away So now I’m aware of every single thing about me The downsides, the deficits, I’ll never be free They keep critiquing the way I dress And the words I say, it adds up to stress Which adds up to me fucking everything up Now I’m dumb out of luck, what am I to do? Got me questioning why I’m attracted to danger When that leads me towards a path of anger I can’t stop apparently because I’m still rappin’ Poetry and flow but still I’m lackin’ with the social skills I’m a stranger, always be a stranger Always getting in constant danger Never getting a chance to breathe or succeed It’s just me, and I wish I could change it I’m a stranger, always be a stranger Always getting in constant danger Never getting a chance to breathe or succeed It’s just me, and I wish I could change it I don’t know how to act so of course I act brash I act this way until I get into a car crash And come out alive, but the pain’s still inside How do I get it out? Why do I have to hide? Who I really am, pretend I’m someone I’m not Cause if every rapper did it then hey, why not? But it doesn’t work for me because my skin is white And they know I’m faking it because I ain’t tight I ain’t live the life of an impoverished man I was spoiled god damn and I’m not proud of it man All the things I missed out on because I wasn’t normal Makes me wish that my life had been more formal Discipline was what my ass needed in order to get better But never, ever, ever did I experience that Instead I get yelled at as if I know facts But I don’t know jack, I don’t have the answers I’m a stranger, always be a stranger Always getting in constant danger Never getting a chance to breathe or succeed It’s just me, and I wish I could change it I’m a stranger, always be a stranger Always getting in constant danger Never getting a chance to breathe or succeed It’s just me, and I wish I could change it I’ll always be strange, until the end of time Spitting line for line trying to make up for the deficit But I’m complicit because I’ve been lying to myself I’m like a drug addict here, baby I need help How else am I supposed to make my life great? Cause ignorance obviously equates to hate And by ignoring my flaws, by definition I’m fucked up Corrupt like a hard drive, can’t even recognize Who I am in the mirror because it’s broken to pieces I look deep into my soul and I see my own thesis I’m like the worst parts of my mom and dad combined And that takes a toll on the mind, can’t press rewind To better times because I never really had them I’m always mad and obsessive but that’s just me Not defending anything, I wish it’d go away But I chose the hardest difficulty that I cannot change so screw me Will T. Karras ever escape his strangeness Will T. Karras ever find acceptance? Find out on the next episode of Stranger