The Villain

I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say I'm a nice guy who's words against me turned me evil I'm trying to be a believer but the pain is hard I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say For if you know me, than you know I'm speaking the truth And I'll continue to do it for the rest of my life I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say I'm a nice guy who's words against me turned me evil I'm trying to be a believer but the pain is hard I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say For if you know me, than you know I'm speaking the truth And I'll continue to do it for the rest of my life I'm the bad guy, in everybody's eyes But you should know, behind that disguise Lies a very noble man with good intentions Who doesn't even know how to present them I've been labeled a lot of things A weirdo, a creep, what am I supposed to think? When you say these things direct to me I wanted to be normal as a kid, believe me But I've been outcasted to the outskirts of the edge Trying to figure out how to meet the day's ends With everybody spitting on me like I'm just plain wrong Why you still hold on? I'm just trying to move on I know what I said may not be the truth But what the f*ck do you want me to say in the booth? I'm not lying, I'm not making excuses I ain't an abuser of trust, so I'm confused as to why I'm the villain I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say I'm a nice guy who's words against me turned me evil I'm trying to be a believer but the pain is hard I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say For if you know me, than you know I'm speaking the truth And I'll continue to do it for the rest of my life I admit, my history may not be the greatest But I feel like The Joker because I just can't take it I tried making up, but they just push me away I don't know what to do, is this the role I play? Causing madness everywhere that I go? Being a pariah, is my life really that cold? To the point where I might just break Take a gun, drive up and rob a bank I thought humanity wanted you to grow and evolve? I guess society fucked up when they wanted to devolve Label people thugs and criminals, throw them on the streets Then lock them up jails, that's how the cycle repeats And I'm doomed to be a part of that cause I'm the villain Always killin' my opportunities to be a productive member Of society, I ain't lyin', I always self-destruct So what the f*ck can I do to stop myself from exploding? I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say I'm a nice guy who's words against me turned me evil I'm trying to be a believer but the pain is hard I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say For if you know me, than you know I'm speaking the truth And I'll continue to do it for the rest of my life I always ask to God, what can I do for redemption? I guess God and I don't have that type of connection I'm on my own, all the time, 365 On the grind, with my mind I might as well be blind How the f*ck can I be all the things they call me? I'm even called a scamster by the scamsters, that hurts me How can I be less honest than those selling blank CDs? I produce my own material, you've got to believe In what I'm trying to do, in what my intentions are I'm not trying to be a star, I'm trying to raise the bar So that others can be who they want to be Not live in fear of always failing to succeed But my job is hard because I've been outcasted As autistic and compulsive, how have I lasted For so long? I don't know, but I have a mission Even though you won't listen, I'mma do it anyway I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say I'm a nice guy who's words against me turned me evil I'm trying to be a believer but the pain is hard I'm the villain, that's what they say But don't believe everything that they say For if you know me, than you know I'm speaking the truth And I'll continue to do it for the rest of my life