What I Want

A lot of people claim to know who I am... A lot of people claim to know what I want... Well you don't know me! So let me tell you what I want in the purest possible form... I'm a fucked up person, that is my mantra I have a large wishlish that I give to Santa But it ain't filled with them material things I just want to be able to live the dream Live in a world where everybody is at peace No stress, no fighting, I can just look up and release Every issue that I had from way back when And I really don't want to relive the memories again But I have to because it's embedded in my membrane All the sights, sounds and feelings; it's driving me insane! That's why I hide the bad ones so I don't feel the emotion I claim I don't know, I put on a show and... It just sucks that I have to be uncomfortable I've made my friends feel awkward with the stories I've told How do I let it go, how do I move on, how do I do it? It's supposed to be easy but I just want to quit What I want is a future very bright... What I want is to do things right... What I want is to live my life... What I want is a ray of light... And this is what I really want... This is what I really want... This is what I really want... This is what I really want! I just want things to work I try to repair things and it makes my soul hurt They don't tell me what I'm supposed to do And I'm stuck in pergatory with no hints or clues How I was supposed to know not to do stupid shit I may be smart but I do a lot of stupid shit Even though I know the consequences are dire But hey, I'm a risk-taker; I'm a fighter I keep coming back for more like a punching bag And I keep getting thrown back into the track And the cycle repeats itself, 24/7 I don't know if there's a hell or even a heaven So yeah, I'm afraid of death... Who isn't? Roller coasters got me prayin' for the people I'd be missin' The final destination could come at any minute And when it comes... That's it. It's over; finished! What I want is a future very bright... What I want is to do things right... What I want is to live my life... What I want is a ray of light... And this is what I really want... This is what I really want... This is what I really want... This is what I really want! I keep on hoping that the wishes come true... I worked so hard trying to show and prove... I sucked a lot of dick just trying to get far... But they all laugh at me like "hardey-har" I wanted to change the game but you didn't want that I have talent and skill but you didn't believe the facts And now you look at me as if i don't know jack As if I was your playtoy in your ittie bittie act This happens to me like every time... Blame my voice for the inability to spit these rhymes You believe that I don't have the ability to grind? Like I'm some priveleged rich white boy, fine... Just give me a sports car so I can be like them Just give me a mansion that I can live in But you won't! Because you like me without friends I just have to ask you. When does this end? This is what I want! This is what I want! This is what I want! This is what I want! This is what I want! This is what I want! This is what I want! This is what I want!