What I've Become

People think it's a game Like they got infinite lives You could get shot by a nine That shit stresses the mind Why would you do this to yourself Why would you fake your mental health Why would you let yourself get pissed Now you don't even exist Ever since my birth I’ve been lookin’ for purpose Somethin’ that’d provide me with that knowledge and focus I thought hard work and sacrifice would help me succeed Now I’ve become a monster of gluttony and greed Suckin’ every celebrity dick I can Just to be a man, did not give a damn About the people around me, I tried to be there But then again, I didn’t care plus I was so scared That they would judge me for what I’ve become and I was right Looked at the mirror, couldn’t see my reflection in sight Had sold my soul to the devil just to advance somewhat And now I feel cold and empty, you could say I’m fucked Now I’m prayin’ to God, I’m like “let me in” I’m here to absolve myself of my many sins I was possessed, how was I supposed to know When the devil’s everywhere and his lies are so gold How the f*ck do I win Look at me, at what I've become I've become egoistic and dumb All because I wanted to be hotter It ain't no fun when you underwater My life be pain and torment Negativity is what I represent So what if I got a lot of cash Music ain't fun when all you makin' is trash And that's what's up Listen up man This shit ain't a game It'll change you, rearrange you Leave you unrecognizable from what you once was before You want to fight for frauds Or you want to fight for the cause It's on you I'm out, peace