Do or Die

This shit might be depressing I just This how a nigga was feeling once upon a time I sorta overcame these feelings I think So many days of being high Remember I was super low Waiting for my moment Just to let my brains blow No I Tried hang and let go All these fucking problems You don't know unless we spoke From molested as a kid To losing all my shit The nigga that you see Never really gave a f*ck Got beat for little things Now I'm bad in every way I'm bout to self destruct Heavens gate I'll see today Suicide Living in this life you either Do or die I know it's never right But I've been living like It really doesn't hurt So maybe all this pain Can transfer through a single verse Twenty-seventeen was the last time I tried to kill myself Battle buddy tried to call But I ignored And took a step I'm standing on the edge At any moment I won't breathe Then they caught me right before I got the chance to make them grieve Yeah the army took a lot But you would never know the basics I done lost so many people Throughout time That time was wasted Newly eighteen I had big dreams But then things just had to crumble I'm just mad at myself Cause in my prime I tripped and fumbled As a kid I had no innocence Grew up with my cousins Then for a decade I ain't know myself Didn't see I was struggling Now they notice all the changes Everyday you know I'm packing Now they like damn I wonder what had really happened Now I'm older Barely sober With no care in the world Tryna beat up on depression While you throw hands at girls Lost my sister Damn I miss her Wish I could hold you one more time Kee I love you And I'm never going down without a fight So many days of being high Remember I was super low Waiting for my moment Jus to let my brains blow No I Tried hang and let go All these fucking problems You don't know unless we spoke From molested as a kid To losing all my shit The nigga that you see Never really gave a shit Got beat for little things Now I'm bad in every way I'm bout to self destruct Heavens gate I'll see today Suicide Living in this life you either Do or die I know it's never right But I've been living like It really doesn't hurt So maybe all this pain Can transfer through a single verse