Rainy Day

Contemplation on a rainy day I'm just trying to be stay positive trying to make a way Just me and my thoughts compassion for my pain Helps me to appreciate when there's a sunny day Grew up poor Parents got divorced Use the babies as collateral will start a war Catalogue dreams the subject's very sore Felt like Oliver Twist I always wanted more Seen the big boys shinning wanted to get involved Clocked I'd shine for a bit then it'd be jail or morgue Love strong enough helped me to stand up tall So if I said anything I said it and grab my balls Had to play cards I was dealt The stress of life highlighted mental health Childhood traumas got me working on self To be seen and not heard so who I can tell I seen anything is possible after 50 f****d Vivica After Ja Rule told me that I should live it up A teacher said I wouldn't be s**t as if I give a f**k Didn't even listen cos they cannot limit us Contemplation on a rainy day I'm just trying to be stay positive trying to make a way Just me and my thoughts compassion for my pain Helps me to appreciate when there's a sunny day Belief on a rainy day I'm just trying to be stay positive trying to make a way Just me and my thoughts compassion for my pain Helps me to appreciate when there's a sunny day Some of the realist shit I ever wrote Kicked out 17 Filled with dreams and hope Downing Street humbled me I'd never been as low A letter left for me to see when I'm back from a show I knew from then I'm out here on my own Short term thinking never had long term goals After hostel got a flat riddled with mould Many mistakes made had to learn the hard way Who cared how I felt I come from tow the line or get hit with a belt No naughty step but really would it have helped These times made me what I am so worked out well Changed mind set from poverty to wealth Wasn't scared of death cos already been to hell Weight on my shoulders heavy like a barbell Now I live the happy life From roof tops I yell Contemplation on a rainy day I'm just trying to be stay positive trying to make a way Just me and my thoughts compassion for my pain Helps me to appreciate when there's a sunny day Belief on a rainy day I'm just trying to be stay positive trying to make a way Just me and my thoughts compassion for my pain Helps me to appreciate when there's a sunny day