Homesick

I've been missin that feelin of home Nose deep in the grind I'm stuck in the zone When I Look up at the clouds, I'm floating alone No time to myself, I owe my own Yeah I been in my head, more than I admit Half the time I can't sleep in my own bed I am worried that I'm not doing enough though I got people depending on me it's tough though Smilin through the rainy days the older I get Im realizing the sun is shining a little less Tryna focus on takin a breath, Take a step back look at the bigger picture im blessed It could be worse hell I've seen worse I been home sick, I'm going through hell first I need a blanket of peace from living in this mad earth I need a piece of home just to prove this was all worth it It's been darker in my head lately, Been struggling to get outta my bed lately Heavy chest, head hanging, I carry it greatly Never let 'em see you sweat, ice cold baby Yeah, heart of gold growing scarred and cold Not much that I can do, that's what I'm being told I guess they're set in their ways and it's a one way road Only see it how they wanna and I gotta know I got people around me and that's where I'm home If my pace ever starts to slow, I just think to myself Big bro told me keep goin Be the role model you ain't have when you was growing This shit means something, you have to be something Don't stop see it through promise me something Do it for the people who need to believe something And when it's over it's over be sure to leave nothing