Growing Pains

I never lose track of time I'm always starting at the clock Wishing it would just go faster While also wishing it would stop I have a constant fucking head ache In my head behind my eye I swear if this stress builds up higher I may not make it home tonight So I'll grit my teeth again Slam my fist on my steering wheeling While also telling myself to calm down Reminding my self what I'm grateful for I don't really care what you have to say I'm 23 still a god damn mess I've been depressed for so damn long I forgot how it feels to feel my best Cause I'm 23 still living With my parents And I'm Feeling like a failure Watching All my friends Move up an on with their own lives While I'm still stuck in this same town You left me in Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhhh oh Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhh oh Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhh oh Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhh oh I'm so sick of feeling rattled Shell shocked and I might as well Tell you that I can't go out tonight Cause my mental health is hell I just want a goddamn break From everything that starts to swell I'm feeling backed into a corner I'm starting to think I need some help Out of this I need some help out of this I need some help out of this I need some help Stuck in a mirroring State of entrapment Like a wild animal That struggles with attachment Behind a metal cage Is a scared and helpless captive A ghost with no direction A transparent perspective I feel lost I feel lost Cause I'm 23 still living With my parents And I'm Feeling like a failure Watching All my friends Move up an on with their own lives While I'm still stuck in this same town You left me in Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhhh oh Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhh oh Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhh oh Woahhh ah oh oh Woahhh oh Cause I'm 23 Still living with my parents And I'm feeling like A failure