Overboard

My heart can't feel the same it hurts so fucking bad Can't blame you for being mad at me my dear Cause I knew it quick that you fell Way too fucking fast And I hate that I never could be the one there So though I know I'm over it Are you Cause I can't sleep at all Thinking how I'm wrong Don't listen to a word I say Cause it can't ever be the same And nothings real I'm panicking The reason why I feel like shit Throw me overboard Sorry I feel this way I can't change nothing now I think sometimes that it's way more about me Cause you wanted me and I wanted anything else So what the hell is so wrong with me Cause In my heart is cardiac and my brain wants to attack And I wish that I could tell you I know that I love you back But I can't and I tried Like 100 different times to lie to myself before I go to sleep at night And every time I try it always feels like cyanide And it makes me really wonder if I a really wanna die If I lie if I try even if I fucking cry Just trying to go to sleep at night Don't listen to a word I say Cause it can't ever be the same And nothings real I'm panicking The reason why I feel like shit Throw me overboard Cause your there no ones ever been And I can't sleep at all And I hate how I don't feel the same And none of it is your fault I swear to god I'm sorry That it had to go this way I wish that there was something I could Cause it seems like no matter what I do or what I say In my heart I know I couldn't fall for you