My Mistakes

You see, I'm living every day, while I'm killing myself inside Got a smile up on my face, while I hope and wish I'd die I remember they said life was easy, but goddamn that was a lie Because I'm living every day, but I've never felt alive They say keep pushing please, but don't know how hard I try Got the weight of the world on my shoulders, and a tear up in my eye I'm still bleeding from these scars, as I look up towards the sky With a gun held to my head, take my soul, I'm yours tonight And yeah, I'm fucked up, yeah I know, but I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul, cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go, cause this life's not meant for me Yeah, I've lost all fucking hope, cause there's nothing that can save me And yeah, I'm fucked up, yeah I know, but I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul, cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go, cause this life's not meant for me Just learn from my mistakes, just learn from my mistakes You see I've hurt too many people, caused too much pain I'm a f*ck up, I'm a loser, but I swear I'd fucking change I try to tell myself I'm worth it, but then here comes the rain And my brain tells me I'm worthless, and it's driving me insane And the only way to make it stop, is the drugs I take It helps take me mentally to another place But as soon as I come back down, my demons are staring me in my face And I'm saying all of this, so someone can learn from my mistakes And yeah, I'm fucked up, yeah I know, but I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul, cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go, cause this life's not meant for me Yeah, I've lost all fucking hope, cause there's nothing that can save me And yeah, I'm fucked up, yeah I know, but I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul, cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go, cause this life's not meant for me Just learn from my mistakes, just learn from my mistakes My mistakes, my mistakes, my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes My mistakes, My mistakes, my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes My mistakes My mistakes My mistakes And yeah I'm fucked up, yea I know But I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul Cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go Cause this life's not meant for me Yeah I've lost all fucking hope Cause there's nothing that can save me And yeah I'm fucked up, yeah I know But I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul Cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go Cause this life's not meant for me Just learn from my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes My mistakes, my mistakes, my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes My mistakes, my mistakes, my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes My mistakes My mistakes My mistakes My mistakes And yeah I'm fucked up, yeah I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul Cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go Cause this life's not meant for me Yeah I've lost all fucking hope Cause there's nothing that can save me And yeah I'm fucked up, yeah I know But I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul Cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go Cause this life's not meant for me Just learn from my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes Yeah I'm fucked up But I'd never let you see I'd hold it deep up in my soul Cause it's just the way it's meant to be But now I have to fucking go Cause this life's not meant for me Just learn from my mistakes Just learn from my mistakes