Rethinking

Feel like I'm lost in thought, I think now I should maybe change my ways I act to friends, I think that this is the end Falling in my own grave, I cannot even understand why I do this Oh no, I cannot escape my own feelings Now I am thinking differently from the past yet God, why did I do this Sorry Oh well, I can't do anything anymore to make but thinking right now Now I can change if I decide to I think you can change such an idiot as myself with a pathetic excuse And all my true colors because I'm a monster with no hope Why did I do this God, why I feel so sorry that I caused this fucking pain I can do anything to gain back control and hope for you To trust me with I can do anything that? Because I still hope we can be good friends and maybe?) I hope you see me now Oh good