All Alone

Yo in a room full of people but honestly I can't see a single one My eyes are clouded and it's just me by myself I would shed more tears for you but I can't I find myself surrounded by More empty bottles than friends This isolation has me trying Crying through a pair of lens Yeah I find myself alone again All alone again with no one here Yeah I find myself alone again All alone again with no one near Hold me like a child coz a man ain't supposed to cry Tear drops ain't hiding this pain but I try Look I been feeling this weight on my chest for a minute Hey trying to recover but sometimes I can't spin it Yeah this wave may feel crushing so I had to adapt Coz baby if I didn't we'd still be trapped I was just a child force to grow up quicker than most Drug lord hand-me-down's excuse the blood on my clothes Yeah a mismatch but I felt so fresh Grape tees Dickie shorts and the runners with the mesh But really I was second hand just like a lefty Wasn't till I felt love that I felt wealthy Aye really some love from people can be an illusion Yeah so in this ignorance I came to this conclusion I find myself surrounded by More empty bottles than friends This isolation has me trying Crying through a pair of lens Yeah I find myself alone again All alone again with no one here Yeah I find myself alone again All alone again with no one near Rub dirt in the wound of my soul and let it callous Uh huh feeling just like Thanos looking for balance Yeah except if I snap more than half will disappear Guess it's what I get for trying to make my point clear Got the stones to say it except finding the words is hard And I'm no magician so I can't pull your right card I heard your pops passed I couldn't pick up the phone I'm sorry I said I would be there and left you alone But I was going through it when you said our love was dead Depression is a bitch and she ran it through my head So I ran to drown my thoughts in another bottle Coz I needed you to be there not just to coddle Liquid courage got me thinking again Yeah thinking that I can love myself again That I don't need anybody else in the end Anything to keep you right here my friend I find myself surrounded by More empty bottles than friends This isolation has me trying Crying through a pair of lens Yeah I find myself alone again All alone again with no one here Yeah I find myself alone again All alone again with no one near If I'm crying I'm crying to myself coz it's just me Right this alcohol should set me free But instead I can feel the pull further down I go If I could give you advice maybe take it slow Coz the fast die young and the wise grow old Loosing love got me numb I can't feel the cold Lord I've lost so many my body physically hurts Just when they going you take again and we feel worst I'm buckling at the knees with tears that ain't really mine But it's just me so I got to tell them I'll be fine While the contents of this flask hugs me like a friend Do you remember that text never hit send Hey just the same you didn't pick up the phone Hell even these bottles going to leave me alone