Changes

I feel the changes Focus on my self and all my angles Never like position life was in So i done changed and rearranged it Create a better me through all them phases Ain't no love I'm handing out Right now this shit Too dangerous I done faced it Only trusting me cause I'm the safest Dealing with this world Will have tied Or leave you hanging like some laces It's only you that's worth the chasing Secure that bag it's back to basics Walk with a nigga I show you my pain Making sense of all this shit Will put a strain on the brain Get to feeling like I'm Aubrey When this shit ain't the same All these habits turn to hobbies When my mental in pain Not a drinker but I always tend To bottle somethings Love to smoke cause when i lit The feelings burn like some sage Taking steps can never leap Cause i been blinded by faith I Tie my trust up to string So it don't wonder a stray It's year since you died and I'm feeling the same What was you feeling in yo heart When you poppin them thangs Was it fear or was you brave Cause you was numbing the pain Call me crazy cause i understand Them feelings these days It's some voids that can't be filled Until the sources explained Had some trust for all my senses But the narrative changed Its some anger in my world I stay confusing like names Cant be the coach, player, captain Of these devilish games I feel the changes Focus on my self and all my angles Never like position life was in So i done changed and rearranged it Create a better me through all them phases Ain't no love I'm handing out Right now this shit Too dangerous I done faced it Only trusting me cause I'm the safest Dealing with this world Will have tied Or leave you hanging like some laces Its only you thats worth the chasing Secure that bag its back to basics Too defensive with a pride I'm relentless with mine How tf im still wrong But protecting my side All that change bring on a fear Cause its a part of me dying So what's the hardest Being killed or rebuilding yo mind All the ways i try to cope Are never healing my mind I'll smoke when I'm mad I'll smoke when I'm fine Ain't difference when you handle all feelings like mine I put myself in these positions But been strong to survive I feel the changes I'm facing I'm on way but patient Ain't slowing when you destined For yo placement Living thru these wrongs Then I fell em on these pages Start to feel alone In a world that's complacent Seeking on my own Aint no point of me complaining Losing all my friends and my fears thru these phases