I BEEN

Oh oh oh, I promise I got you Oh oh oh, I promise I got you I've been dreaming bout you knocking on the door Where I live, imagine you just walking in to play with my kids Tried to hug you but I opened up my eyelids And I can't, can't admit the fact sometimes I wake up crying Wipe my tears and roll a wood and sit in silence Wishing I forget the thought of you just dying And nigga you know that you heard me I'm praying to God, I'm asking for peace I'm really just hoping he heard me I'm sad but I'm grinning I'm masking this pain With pints of tequila and Perkys I wake up drinking too early Hoping this life shit worth it Paying one day that I die with a purpose Don't let me fade to the shadows Keep my memory living Speak at my funeral Tell them I got through the battles Every last one I was given Really hurt to say that you dead to me Even though you still living I keep a mug, I really don't know how to trust Think everyone treating me different People don't know that I'm friendly Approach me timid, yeah Everything feel like a gimmick, yeah Mixing these drugs like a chemist Suicide been on my mind for a minute Thought I'd be better if I wasn't living Thinking bout bro, now I'm livid Tired of thinking bout shit all the time Now I'm sipping, still hear the hood if you listen Look for my own way to cope So I'm keeping my distance I've been dreaming bout you Knocking on the door where I live Imagine you just walking in to play with my kids Tried to hug you but I opened up my eyelids And I can't, can't admit the fact Sometimes I wake up crying Wipe my tears and roll a wood and sit in silence Wishing I forget the thought of you just dying I just knew I shouldn't worry about you Till I woke up to that news What to do 'Cause your death it left me spooked But now I'm going hard for you And I won't let this shit break me I came straight from the mud I was made under da dirt Trained me to go Boy I came straight from the glove We Wearing guns like it's merch Would've gave up a couple of years ago It's just a little pain Gotta stop acting like I never shed any tears before The past repeating itself I ain't the type to ask for help if I needed some help All of this time I thought that I needed somebody But really I needed myself Vision was cloudy I never knew if I was worth it But now I can see it myself I don't see no one in front of me It's only one of me Only compete with myself I've been Dreaming bout you knocking on the door Where I live Imagine you just walking in to play with my kids Tried to hug you but I opened up my eyelids And I can't, can't admit the fact Sometimes I wake up crying Wipe my tears and roll the wood and sit in silence Wishing I forget the thought of you just dyin