BREAK UP SONG

Uh I knew it had to end, eventually And I agree with the things you said And all the things I didn't I still understand your sentiment Your pain is valid I made mistakes, but That shit was challenging Crazy how quick it all vanished out of sight You turned to anguish and to spite One moment you care for me Next, you wish for my demise And that hurts And then you call me a misogynist Because of my philosophy That sex should be monogamous? And blame me for my jealousy? That's fucking hypocrisy I thought that you of all wouldn't judge my insecurity I thought that you of all would understand How I felt like less of a man Once I knew that you had sex with Most of your friends Once I knew that you had sex with So many other men That looked a lot like me That shit had me questioning Was I just another one? Another name to the list You'll forget when the summer comes? Now I'm just another ex To blame in your trauma dumps You're right, I'm insensitive I was selfish in recklessness I didn't realize that I would lose you in an instant But you didn't give me time, You were short on forgiveness and that hurt I didn't realize that I would lose you in an instant But you didn't give me time, You were short on forgiveness and that hurts And it still feels like this could have been avoided I would you took a second to be calm before the moment If I had just decided not to meet you out for lunch I wouldn't have said those shitty things That went and punctured out your lungs I wish that when I said the wrong things= You would tell me to my face Instead of acting okay Until it was too late I wish I wasn't high when you called me that night I was gone I couldn't write to you the things I really meant So my texts were misread And my words were caught in spite Tears shed on my bed Same bed where you had slept A couple days before the end Wish you woulda slept a few more nights A few more dates A few less fights And now you fucking hate me But trust me I tried I wish you gave me the chance To go and right my wrongs I wish I coulda this to your face Instead of writing a song But you wouldn't give me the time of day Instead you ended things while you were drunk And emotional on-call I wish our breakup Coulda transpired in person I wish you woulda told me What was wrong before it worsened I wish you didn't call when I was far from being sober And blame me for being slower And berate me out of nowhere Cuz on text it's hard to tell When you're angry and wanting closure I thought that we were closer I thought you wouldn't give up As soon as things got hard I didn't know you'd lose composure And hate me for my ignorance For things you always holstered You didn't tell me your issues In real life, to my face So it was difficult to know How much my words really stang I blamed you unfairly I agree, that's a mistake But please have some sympathy You were in polygamy with many other partners I was just thinking statistically I think that my assumption still carries some validity I wish after it ended You didn't keep on belittling I wish after it ended You didn't hate me as a person I was flawed, I wasn't perfect But I guarantee if we had talked About our problems once in person I coulda changed Instead of continuing to hurt you But I hurt you, and I'm sorry So if you're better of without me Then I don't deserve you I hope you're alright