Hourglass

Damn Yo I thought time would pause after we said i do But death do us part was only based on the shit I do Never thought that I would lose Everything Its fucked up cause these rings Had expiration dates Damn I should have never came home late But after all I put her through how much did I think she take Now we daily kill each other past lovers are now roommates And I feel Im change but does that change the damage that I caused An apologetic killer dont change that a life was lost And a sorry child molester wont bring back that innocence So a marriage wont be fixed just because a man repents She aint God but I'm basing my worth on the way she view me This love is toxic im trying while scared to death that she'll leave me But it seems best for the sake of us losing ourself to split I never even thought the way that I'm feeling could still exist What did I miss when I was reviewing the risk The Ways of escape exist but obviously I was tricked To think I was just a mess that couldnt do right by God Couldn't do right by her but that was just a Mirage And Now that I put her first she rather us be apart She dont even wear her ring while im tryna give her my heart In exchange for new start. f*ck it lets work it out for the kids Though I'm miserable on the fence I'm just wanting her to forgive But we both ain't happy in this so we daily quick to offend We been holding our anger in till grenades loses the pin And we blow up, Saying shit that hurt and cut deep Man we love each other but there so much pain thats underneath Fix marriage or don't? Which one means that i'll be free The realest shit that I wrote came from pain nobody sees And I'm sick of church members acting like they got the key They just searching for the tea they don't really want you free Lying pastors pass for innocent dictate what people see I toss and turn from my mistakes I wonder if they getting sleep I swear I can shake the city based on secrets that I keep They just keep me close enough ensuring I wont say a peep But those secrets safe with me, I'm just cleaning out my closet I wont say a thing. I'll never include who was involved But whats concerning me is something I will proudly tell it all cause God sees everything why would hide from any one of yall But that dont change my love for you be blessed sis salute bro You got greatness in you don't lose hope Get rid of that sin tho. I'm Not trying to offend those I'm just giving info without giving info If God is omnipresent then what we pretend for To God we are sinful but we fronting for them folk I think thats so wack but I'm getting im off track, I want my wife back But damn sometimes we stray too far to ever come back But i understand that nothing is impossible for God So I'm praying hard he changes her heart But if not still heal mines Show me I'm not bound to what i was. Show me I'm forgiven Show me that im covered by the blood. Help me walk in wisdom Im not sweeping sins under the rug. Take my bad decisions Show them that im different just because of the God thats risen Cause you will the glory for my pain without you I have miss it Let them see with you I'm not the same I'll take my life and risk it I'm not doing music for the fame but giving facts to christians That experienced going through some things You are not alone You are not defined by your mistakes you can come back home Failure doesn't have to be your fait, see every strong hold Good has givin you the strength to break But it be prolonged by deceiving thoughts that say you can't But thats a lie I put that on my life that you will not die Cling to Christ put no trust in flesh the hearts is full of pride That implies you the worst person alive so don't try God and Satan both are gunnin for your life so pick a side Don't cover yo scars war wounds are divine Glory to the most high that you can rise Whatever you did is over let the past be the past give it to God Confess your sins turn away In Jesus name you are alive