No more than a ghost to me right now

I hate it when I think back I feel like a lover, a faker, a loser Like wine that has gone bad Maybe it has always been nothing but sour My head is a mess, but it's going to be fine There's stuff in my blood keeping me alive More alive than I've ever felt with you, somehow 'Cause you're no more than a ghost to me right now The more I miss the time we shared that evening More I realize it was temporary drunken chemistry Drinks we had make the memories go blurry What we were, what I felt wasn't real at all, were we? It takes little to neglect the vast unknown And I thought I was right Except I reach my hand out to sense your ghost Every fucking night My head is a mess, but it's going to be fine There's stuff in my blood keeping me alive More alive than I've ever felt with you, somehow 'Cause you're no more than a ghost to me right now The more I miss the time we shared that evening More I realize it was nothing more than twofold vanity Drinks we had make the memories go blurry What we were, what I felt wasn't real at all, were we? Width of your back's turned but warm against me The unwashed wax in your hair lingers and is sweet The gift of this new day, within a hand's reach Yet still rids me of all our possibilities And now, you're no more than a ghost to me And now, you're no more than a ghost to me The more I miss the time we shared that evening More I realize it was temporary drunken chemistry Drinks we had make the memories go blurry What we were, what I felt wasn't real at all, were we? It was nothing more than twofold vanity What we were, what I felt wasn't real at all, were we?