Letter To Myself (feat. K Nicey)

I really think I'm alone Ahh Yeah Just because it's a house doesn't mean that it's a home Ahh yeah Mama and daddy would always stay fussing not getting alone Ahh yeah Damn I miss my little brother but my lil nigga gone I catch myself dreamin bout him at night wondering growing whats him would be like Dreams of us chasing a bag I wish he didn't pass overnight I was a youngn just chasing my dreams but everybody told me they was too little how would you feel if yo daddy would beat on your mom until she was up in the hospital And on the worst case that nigga probably missed all of my birthdays When my mom told me imma end up like my dad it hurt me in the worst way But I just wanted your trust Matter of fact nigga I wanted your love But you would not give that shit to both your sons and your daughters you gave all that shit to the drugs My sister asked why are we by ourselves No dad cuz that nigga need bail The only time that I had heard from him was the correctional letters he sent in the mail Somebody help me I feel like I'm drowning I really feel like I been loosing my hope I'm losing friends and family tears coming outta me don't wanna lose any mo 13 I got bullied 14 yeah I still wasn't cook 15 yeah I picked up on rappin and I figured out that it's what imma do 16 started grindin an stuff 17 man I'm blowin up 18 and I feel like I'm back where I started cuz this where it starts to get tough I gotta manifest destiny I really gotta figure out where I'm gonna go It's either that or a plan to fall back cuz I swear in my life I ain't losing em both Friends can turn into enemies yeah it has happened to me and it's taking toll Working on building myself and then building my wealth cuz you wasn't there when I was broke People will say that they love you and then they will judge you and hate on the way that you live That's why I embrace what I do and embrace all my moves when I stare at myself in the mirror Everyday I wipe it off I gotta make sure my vision will always be clear And If you don't like me and doubt the dream they why in the hell are you here But Don't really care cuz I do the most I'm spending all of my time in the stuido Why would I lie and tell you that I care Nah Aye Said we are not talking regardless Look at the shit you done started Nigga go dumb and retarted You gotta see how I'm coming I'm bringing some money in every so often Pass me the rock and you know I be balling like Tatum that boy there a killer in Boston Only talk if it's bout money I'm strictly business I take it right back to the office You owe me money then pay me my money if not imma send yo ass straight to yo coffin I gotta keep it a hunnid I'm solid You use my shit put it back where you saw it I gotta hustle I like to get paid I cannot settle for minimum wage I gotta stay in my zone everyday gotta make it a habit I'm stuck in my ways I gotta finish my story and start a new chapter it's time that I turn a new page All of the shit that I see in the news I continue to feel like we stuck in a cage I run the point so just follow my lead cause it's time that I go out and run us a play Yeah And I'll be okay Uh yeah And I'll be alright I run through the day Yeah uh And creep through the night And now it's too late Yeah aye I'm done being nice I'm done being nice yeah I'm done being