Suicide Letters

[1st Verse]Picture meIn a casketBlastedNever nobodyKnew how longThe pain lastedKeep my eyes tightI'm frightenedBut I fights like TysonWhen playin' this game of lifeI'm losingLonging to be enlightenedAbsorb my mind stateReduce the crime rateAnd take me outWhen running toward the LordI see 'em fake meOut shook meSo from church I play hookieListen to the words of a brotherThe sick stuttersSo you better betterGet the get the bags readyComes a killer killerLike SkagnettiMy brains contaminatedHella rottenWasn't me that killed youWho was it what was itThe effects of the mildewMy brain's wiltedIn my eyes the world is a bit tiltedLord take me awayBefore somebody else gets killedBlood spilledSeriouslyThis is the letter to my homiesI'll be missinGod told me to behold a pale horseBut I didn't listenIt's hard manMy life is scarred manI'm losing my mindSo now it's timeSincerely signN9NE[Chorus]I just wanna dieI don't want to wake upI don't wanna cuzThat's the way that I feelI'm barely hanging onI don't want to wake upI don't wanna cuzThat's the way it has to be[repeat 2x][2nd Verse]I made your life a living hellWith my infidelityRemember your telling meAll I give a damn aboutIs weed stems and melodiesRemember youSpent 30 minutes in the hospital parking lotCryingWhen the blood test readThe baby of another woman was mine99.99You should've leftAlong time ago like Mary J. sayJust let it go like Ray J.Con'tI know your mamma heardYou yelling maydaySpent my life trying to R-A to the PYou sick of meAlways bein' B to the R-O-K to the ENow there's nothinElse left of meI was a bumBut you still wanted someThrough the rain, snow and thunderFoul ups , bleeps and blundersBut no man shall tear asunderIs what you saidYou should've put multi bulletsIn my headWhen you found that evilInstinct was a songWhere the events actually went onThis is the letterTo my homie, my friendWho put up with me for 8So now to take meReally quickly is my fateI'm sorryFor making it hardI know your scarredI'm losing my mindSo now it's timeSincerely signN9ne[Chorus]I just want to dieI don't want to wake upI don't wanna cuzThat's the way that I feelI'm barely hanging onI don't want to wake upI don't wanna cuzThat's the way it has to be[repeat 2x][3rd Verse]I love ya'llThe dynamic duo, my babiesIt ain't your faultThat your daddy's crazyDonny,I miss your drumming like meOne day you'll be rulingLeelee,I miss you in my faceYellinDaddy, what you doinYou two are the reasonWhy I'm still standing todayBut I'm 1600 miles awayAnd you get my heart sinkinWhen I start thinkin' about you babiesI heavily start drinkinOn a daily puffinI'm seeing my heartI gots to toughinCan't see me leavin' my angels with nothinSo I keep bussinUse my pain for you twoI've gotta come up in the gameSo one day you can do the same with yoursLove you galoreAnd I ain't playinmakin' me put an endTo this suicidal mind state sayin[chorus]I don't want to wake upI don't wanna cuzThat's the way I feelI'm barely hanging onI don't want to wake upI don't wanna cuzThat's the way it has to be[repeat 2x]