You Should Smile Some More

I should smile some more Be wild some more Feel like a child, explore Feel like i'm dying on the floor Turn off the sound, shut the door My meds are besides the bed I misled myself towards certain directions Reflectin' on my words weapons Reflection in the mirror Hard to look at myself Hard to see in the dark Hard to stand and be the man i'm supposed to be Way more funner to use these girls fittingly Whenever I please, whenever I need Whenever I bleed Spilling seed, i'm the enemy Villain of the story in all of his glory Memento mori type vibe Unalive inside The prize is pain, i'm both abel and cain Got things coursing through my veins Bane of my existence, bane of yours too, bane of hers too Stay in your lane when doing your wishing I don't need no help Detrimental to my health This is all i've ever felt This is all I ever feel The room is still spinning The party is far from over But i'm getting kinda tired And hopefully getting kinda sober There's a first time for anything So i'm trying everything Falling into despair Far beyond repair Trios of butterflies, leos, and geminis Blonde bimbos and the worst of guys I'm at the top of the line Lost in my own mind Hard to find I'm Jack in the shine Black in some white You're in my light So vile, i've snuffed out the sun Just so we have all night