Adjacent

I am alien to myself I have the feeling of not being myself I look in the mirror and I am someone different There is no feeling that fills this emptiness I feel nothing There is no love or pleasure There is nothing that makes me feel Death visited me three times I was wandering in the dark Not even that made me feel I never turned back I didn't do it before, I won't do it now Even if I lose the battle I won't look back There is no reason to continue There is no reason to give up There is no reason to live There is no reason to die I feel a strange ecstasy Under the rain that wets my body The heat that lets me feel It's as if it gives me a reason Maybe I'm a damned Maybe it's my prison I was born in war There is no rifle that makes me fear I never turned back I didn't do it before, I didn't do it now I will do it now? I won't look back There's no reason to keep going There's no reason to give up There's no reason to live There's no reason to die I never turned back I didn't do it before, I didn't do it now I will do it now? I won't look back There's no reason to keep going There's no reason to give up There's no reason to live There's no reason to die I never turned back I didn't do it before, I won't do it now I will do it now? Even if I lose the battle I won't look back There is no reason to continue There is no reason to give up There is no reason to live There is no reason to die Pain is my flag I dyed it with blood I made my eternal martyr A weapon to live by