Self Esteem

I wrote her off for the tenth time todayAnd practiced all the things I would sayBut she came over I lost my nerveI took her back and made her dessertOh I know I'm being usedThat's okay man cause I like the abuseOh I know she's playing with meThat's okay cause I've got no self esteemWe make plans to go out at nightI wait till 2 then I turn out the lightThis rejection's got me so lowIf she keeps it up I just might tell her soWhen she's saying, oh, that she wants only meThen I wonder why she sleeps with my friendsWhen she's saying, oh, that I'm like a diseaseThen I wonder how much more I can spendWell I guess I should stick up for myselfBut I really think it's better this wayThe more you sufferThe more it shows you really care Right? Yeah-eh-ehNow I'll relate this little bitThat happens more than I'd like to admitLate at night she knocks on my doorShe's drunk again and looking to scoreOh I know I should say no but It's kind of hard when she's ready to goI may be dumb, but I'm not a dweebI'm just a sucker with no self esteemWhen she's saying, oh, that she wants only meThen I wonder why she sleeps with my friendsWhen she's saying, oh, that I'm like a diseaseThen I wonder how much more I can spendWell I guess I should stick up for myselfBut I really think it's better this wayThe more you sufferThe more it shows you really care Right? Yeah-eh-eh