Hear Me Out (interlude)

(It is currently 5:28 pm as I speak) (February 25th 2021) (I'm a highschool senior) (Overthinking God's Plan) (And I don't know where to head) (Lord why?) (But I know I shouldn't be worried) (I shouldn't be worried) (Romans 8:18) Yeah I see my life just closer by the fuckin second I try to reminisce about the times with all my best friends I try to avoid the love that I just wanted to fuckin witness And I feel like I have ptsd, With all the memories "Lord why can't I just get right?" "Why can't I just live life?" "Why can't I be with you?" I know my knowledge also grew I just thought about it Take a breather Wait a few seconds Now just think even deeper I'm here telling my story U see where this is heading? Now think of all the people That are Quiet with deception "And Keep it to yourself Cuz we don't give a f*ck!" I don't speak to no one else Like who do I trust? "I have the eager to kill But I don't ever speak up" "it's not right way to be" Gods tells me "don't u give up " And I'm just way too weak And I also was obese Eating shit like ravioli That's what I call a phony Cuz all u hating mothafuckas might have beat after all U took the things that I loved and I don't know how to start Like what did I do to u to f*ck with my craft And u still try to remind me about my damn past Like the past is the past And the present is here The future awaits And I can't waste it with you dear U were holding me back I thought I could trust u most And I Protected u at all cost U were scared and had to ghost Shit really broke my heart And that's not why I gave up! U were my 2 in 1 package My best friend and love And if u ever come back I'd use ur own words against u "It was lovely but ITS OVER And it is what it's is" boo'