Self Reflection

My mind is like a vault filled with "I don't knows" I tell myself to talk but not be exposed The liars of the bank are scars I've displaced Panic button pressed I feel so depressed I'm looking for more than just regret I see it all I see the fall I see the ball in my own court In my own home I feel alone But I see the throne But it's just another lie Man, I've heard it all along Just another lie Man, I've heard it all along I've seen it many times it hurts so many souls I pray that this state of mind that it gets up off the floor So pretty please God Don't turn me away My fighting's not done Man I'm here to stay Next round I'll bring it down On the clown Alone, you heard me right See I know they saying my name But I don't hear a thing This is the blood I taste On the mat of disgrace On the matter it takes to get me more through this life One name I'm reppin and his name is Jesus Christ So This is my reality Hope, this doesn't shatter me Know, that this is festering Given all the best of me I'm looking for a memory that's not disturbing Surface level stuff, that is innerving Tired of these moments Tired of these thoughts Why does this trauma Leave me so distraught Lord, seek my heart like it's never been sought But the agents of chaos They bringing lies just to break us This ain't about being famous This about being nameless I'm bringing something worth saying Bringing something worth playing This is to my Creator The one who loved and made us The one who died to save us The one who's chains He is breaking Can I speak a little bit Can I tell you not to quit Can I say that love exists Are you tired of this Walking endlessly through this barren empty hall Desperately trying to to give em your all Knowing in the end that It's never gonna matter To them you're just a parasite Hope to kill ya faster Yeah This is who I am