Worth it (feat. Hans & Maria Bunyi)

Questions no answers I'm terrified of taking stuff for granted Jesus may be my hope for living but I don't wanna take a chance Roll the dice put it in his hands, Why Ain't he sticking to my plans crafted by my self-righteous hands But damn man im bankrupt I got nothing left You said you wanted it all but you taken my regrets I'm sorry, I'm at odds with myself You calling my bluff You bought what I don't sell, Well Here we are now, I'm in a vulnerable place You tore it all down, and now I'm feeling far away What's wrong with this picture, you saying this is your grace When my daddy was hitting and he was shackling my chains Now you say that forgiveness is your only way To accomplish the mission, of restoring my faith So I can finish the race? Nah, this is the game of pain I don't wanna play I lost my heart, can you find it please I fell so hopeless, I'm on my knees My castles burning, is this my purpose To be left alone with all my thoughts I wanna know its worth it I remember back in school days Perfection was a canvas was a canvas nobody could paint We getting educated? Well that was up for debate Putting eachother in boxes was showing our strength But tell me God, where were you when I was getting hate These different locations, but the hurt was all the same Freedom from their words was a price I couldn't pay When I wanted to hit them, you said it wasn't okay You said turn the other cheek, but I felt like a sheep Just wandering aimlessly while I gave up on my dreams Wanted to prove them all wrong, wanted to stand up top The more they spat their curses, the harder I fought Call me hot topic wanted to break all the bondage I wanted to break them all man, including my father He ain't never loved me man he said I was a bother But I said I was sorry why don't you call that progress I ain't asking for a lot not like I'm asking for your power Just if we could push this under the rug, cuz I don't want to talk about it I don't wanna talk about It's old news, you say that, we need to review The struggles, the heartache, my own point of view My defenses are scattered, what more will you take This is the game of pain I don't wanna play This is the game of pain I don't wanna play I found my heart, you set me free You took my burdens, while I was on my knees My chains are broken, I know my purpose To be loved by you and you alone God I know you're worth it 23 years, I'm stuck on the stairs Plotting my destruction and wondering will I get better from here Forgiveness is a process, a project coming with knowledge That I won't see till the end of times when the heavens sounding He'll look upon my face and say well done my servant You ain't never really deserve but this grace you couldn't earn it You gave yourself to service you gave yourself to a purpose You rejected your own anger cuz you knew it wasn't worth it You looked at my love and said I need you Forgiven forever, these words in my book of truth I'll teach you and never leave you, I have the key to Those prison bars that hold your bleeding heart, I know you Come to me you are weary I'll give you rest It's not on you to worry about what will happen next Come to me you are weary I'll give you rest It's not on you to worry about what will happen next