Blood On My Hands

Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse Life after death, made me immortal Ink in my flesh, tally the totals God made me blessed, can't break my motives At war with demons, can't get control of them I'm havin' visions, just comin' clean Like it's the ring, crawled through the screen Guardin' my spirit, fought through the madness Whispers I hear em, it's not imagined Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse I sit and scribble in my pad all the thoughts that I had It's like the butterfly effect, how I'm relivin' the past Usin' distance as a mask on an emotionless fast I think in rhymes to expand on convos I've never had Every time I pen a verse, it's like I'm buildin' a path Buried poems into the earth until I split it in half My only refuge has been found in this music I have We all stray away from God until we're feelin' the wrath Yeah I close my eyes and touch both palms and to Lord I pray I've done evil, I've hurt people, can't lift the weight It's hard to hear you, the mirror's echo can't hide my face And at a risin' rate, I'm losin' things that I can't replace Reminiscin' steps that I can't retrace Livin' with a pain that I won't embrace I'm nonchalant in a frozen state Before I hurt you, I'll desert you, that was just in case Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse Sometimes I just wanna, fall off the grid I shed so many tears, I met my end Know I was livin' wrong, don't count my sins Got blood on both my hands, it's hard to rinse