Control

Ever since I started getting high I never been so low Been tryna maintain, I got pain that friends don't know Not a perfect person, got to keep these urges in control I tried to stay away, but everyday it seem to tempt me though And if it's so wrong, somebody tell me why it feels so right It's the middle of November, I can't hardly even chill at night My car broke down, thinking 'bout how I'm gon' pay my bills From talking to me, you could never tell the way I feel So much on my plate, its better off to say my plate is filled People faking to my face and got the nerve to say they real I'm getting buzzed to take the pain away The sun is out, so why I feel like it's a rainy day? My mama and my daddy they would say to pray Instead I handle problems on a day-to-day It could be worse, so why I do feel like I'm in hell right now? Tomorrow I'll still have problems, but I know what could help right how Like a couple of shots, a few drags from a L right now Should I fight through it? or should I fight the urges? Don't let substance control you, or take toll on you as a person Ever since I started getting high I never been so low Been tryna maintain, I got pain that friends don't know Not a perfect person, got to keep these urges in control I tried to stay away, but everyday it seem to tempt me though Yeah Try not to fall off the wagon Oh wait I guess it too late, it already happened Shorty is naggin', she all on your back and you can't deal with her You still with her, but running to the next chick instead of being real with her Attention from the opposite gender can make you feel bigger Now she writing statuses saying "there ain't no real niggas" You give up to soon, you way too impatient You needed a quick fix, you gave in to temptation You couldn't fight the urge, you was about that action like a verb A temporary healing until you realize you'll never find nobody quite like her You was wasting her time, chasing your high when you could've worked it out To make it worse she done heard about it through word of mouth Boy you got her hurting now Been moody lately, she been carrying your first child Was gonna tell you but now she don't think its worth her while Not to mention she say she keeping it too And when it's born better believe she wanna to keep it from you She's insulting you to others, making sure that you're the culprit Its all a chain reaction When things we don't think would happen come crashing down Because we reacted off impulses And now he like "baby I never meant it, I guess I was just tempted"