Be My Blood

I am not within, within myself. I am not here, here I lay asleep, asleep in someone else. Hopeless eyes, withered skin, Who is this man that stands before me? My eyes blind, I can't stay here. In a fog so thick, all is grey. I misplaced myself and I lost my face. I hate what fills my shell. There is nothing clear and nothing is mine in this self-made hell. I am not here, not within myself, cleanse me, rape me. Fill me Satan. Fill me father, bringer of light, be my blood.