Purging .

Purging, urging to have space Please, like i did before I don't wanna close the doors with you Feeling every little thing, cause the little things matter to you I don't mind the purging Urges, I'm feeling worthless I don't know where my heart is Is it with you, can I have it back? Never mind the less of it all Never mind the hex you put on me Is it for the better, you'd be gone? Is it for the less of me to fall back into sin? And yet again I'd still be your friend Cause' i don't mind the purges, as long as you feel you're worth it again Again and again I still sit, thinking we're okay I don't feel the pain, I don't feel alive Tryna find Christ Little boy inside, screaming for his life Trapped inside a mind, programed by lies Youth, your not alone Fighting demons that are not your own Family trauma you ain't asked for, now it's only you on your floor Feeling like the high is your temple to run to But trust me your Father wants you (And somehow that shielded him, and unionized him) (Against the distinction in his family) (So it's always worth remembering that in middle of all the bad news) (that there are some remarkable and resilient, children and adults)