Indescribable Pain

Like who ever thought I would win Up from the sunrise until the sunset I been getting it in Seem like ever Since I noticed my worth I've been losing friends Cant let no new niggas in I don't want to be snaked again Sometimes I talk but wonder if somebody's actually listening Momma used to always tell me just cause you hear me don't mean you listening I be trying to express my pain but a regular mind can't comprehend it My pain confuse me sometimes can't expect no one to get it Only god can judge me I don't give a f*ck about nigga's opinions I know I'm not perfect and I don't always make the best decisions But I know God know my heart and know that I got good intentions Life been A struggle and I got God as my witness Watching my own thoughts Trying to express them but nobody paying attention I mind my business and stay out of the mix So please keep me out of your mentions And I don't want to fuss and fight no more Like bae calm down shut up and listen Like bae calm down it's too much tension I wish I could go back to the old days When me and gang was jumping fences When me and gang was ding dong ditching I wish I could go back to the old days When my bros still was living long live them I really miss them I'm always feeling like I'm wrong So I hit up the mall and buy some forces can't go wrong Buy my bitch a fit I know she gonna look good put this on Hop in the whip roll the windows down blast my song You ain't f*ck with me then don't f*ck with me now I ain't answering the phone Not for a reason I'm quarantining I'm staying home They like Mondo from the county but I swear it feel like I grew up in the trenches I then been and seen everywhere seem like the city ain't much do different In Saint Louis ain't no where safe anywhere you go it can get wicked But I got to get my people out and I feel like I'm the ticket It's hard to take me there but you f*ck my family I get livid I'll be trying to Express my pain but a regular mind can't comprehend it My pain confuse me sometimes i don't expect another Nigga to get it Only god can judge a nigga I don't give a f*ck about nigga's opinions I know I'm not perfect and I don't always make the best decisions But I know God know my heart and know that I got good intentions Life been A struggle and I got God as my witness Watching my own thoughts trying to express them But nobody paying attention