Light of Some Kind

i wish i didn't have this nervous laugh i wish i didn't say half the stuff i say i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks i guess i'm not concerned about getting away 'cause every time i try to hold my tongue it slips like a fish from a line they say if you want to play you should learn how to play dumb i guess i can't bring myself to waste your time 'cause we both know what i've been doing i've been intentionally bad at lying you're the only boy i ever let see through me and i hope you believe me when i say i'm trying and i hope i never improve my game yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame there must be a light of some kind there must be a light of some kind i must have blown a fuse or something cause it was so dark in my mind she came up to me with the sweetest face and she was holding a light of some kind and i still think of you as my boyfriend i don't think this is the end of the world but i think maybe you should follow my example and go meet yourself a really nice girl 'cause we both know. . . in the end the world comes down to just a few people but for you it comes down to one but no one ever asked me if i thought i could be everything to someone there's a crowd of people harbored in every person there are so many roles that we play and you've decided to love me for eternity i'm still deciding who i want to be today cause we both know. . .