Subconscious

On one hand I'm walking The way that I do Looking like I'm lost in thought But I'm looking for you It's so subconscious The way that I feel Too bad my subconscious life Is the more real And I ain't in the best shape That I've ever been in But I know where I'm going And it ain't where I've been I know where I'm going And it ain't where I've been Some kind of anxiety Has gotten hold of my heart And I just want to run home When I feel it start Plastic bottles of water Sealed windows, forced air And gazillions of cell phones Beaming through my (h)air And I ain't in the best shape That I've ever been in But I know where I'm going And it ain't where I've been I know where I'm going And it ain't where I've been I'm tossing and turning Between sleepless dreams And I'm poised on the edge of What it all means So I turn my back And I spread my arms wide And I let myself fall in Way deep inside And I ain't in the best shape That I've ever been in But I know where I'm going And it ain't where I've been I know where I'm going And it ain't where I've been